Only because saw more rice one eye in the crowd

Only because saw more rice in the crowd one eye author: The southwest brilliant scholar small tiger is social nowadays, be you are a person of time, the other people will is the person to you and even be absolute being, be other people chase your not appropriate person of time, you don't want to live in self-abandonment and is hard a person!Sooner or later and one day, the other people will be the absolute being to you.As grandmother is leaving human life, she packs into coffin and need to be stopped the house after etc.ing geomancer to see the day just can climb mountain to bury in the ground at the hall and stop at the day of home, all grandmothers grandchildren generation, can not go to bed, coffin underneath the important point grow a clear light, the nighttime is usually parents and the uncles to guard, in the daytime I and the younger brother took turns to burn joss stick for grandmother and burn paper, and don't let coffin under of the kerosene lamp put out.Thus under the underworld, the grandmother's president of association is long wearing a smile to think of human life of.This is me to bring up grandmother in the blog for the second time, the first time should be the article of five year agos.It has been more than 20 years since she leavesed human life, I is what she takes big, put a cow lead long a cow nose cordage, is what she teaches me, in childhood cut grass how use sickle, is what she teaches me, climbed mountain mow pig grass come back, with the chopper chop down pig vegetables, is what she teaches me, in winter in the cooking stove before the building roast fuel, is what grandmother embraces me.Grandmother gives my impression very deep, although I don't recall her shape of old man's house up to now.More than 20 year agos till now, grandmother's the only photograph, have been accompanying with me, but have already been getting more unclear, I take her photograph to go to university and take to work Jiangsu to take her photograph to arrive at Shanghai for 8 years, at present.The parents have no mutually cognitive of time, grandmother because cook a meal at home, carelessly on burning the house of the torch itself, the house and couch grass building of the corn pole of the village inside, follow Pa in the Mao together of burn.Burned whole villageses, grandmother served prison term, the father follows a grandpa, the father's two elder brothers consign to next-door neighbor, the father's younger brother then sent a person.Grandmother after the jail, the grandpa divides past live with two uncle's houses, we with grandpa have no how much feelings, the grandpa's life is bitter than grandmother, time walk, 70 many year old,cheap nba jerseys is to cut wood to go home to the top of hill, nelson behind die.Two elder brothers of father have no culture, the grandmother hardships ground doesn't  want to make the father study, this is also the father why make us make great effort to study afterwards the reason of coming out the gully, grandmother inheritted good gene to the father.The father says:"A few ex- mountains in the door, each mountain has dissimilarity to lead to outside road, but your life road, it is the only exit to only study!"Grandmother the time in a life time, cook a meal for parents, cook a pig food, shine on to see us.Mother's diligence cultivates and goes out early and returns till late and once climbs mountain in rains and winds and once rains ground in breeze snow, the night deeply returns to us that tottering house inside, very tired, but enjoy a very sound sleep.Grandmother's relationship with mother is very good, the mother gathers city up sell a firewood to sell grass back, always can't forget to take 2 for grandmother to fry in oil Ba, but grandmothers will divide each time an eat for me, sometimes all give I and younger brother's younger sister eat.At the time that grandmother died, the mother cried the dying lived, I remembered drizzle in the days that grandmother walks, spreads in home yard full the rice straw was antiskid, the electric light was a next door the old Ning to come to the electricity of generator hair, muddled the lamp bulb sinking is unclear under the night view.Bury grandmother, we spend much money, is all something to borrow.For still lending, the father did every month of teacher's wages of 76 dollars of people to take out to all return, leave of money, put in his clothes pocket, he likes to hang clothes at under the building beam of a nail of wood pillar up, usually drive I secretly touch 5 hairs or a dollar buy breakfast and regardless steal 5 hairs still 1 piece, I can eat for a week, because fried in oil Ba just at that time 1 the hair is 1, stole five hairs to eat for five days, stole a cake of, still keep eating for five days, two a days.Be discovered that I after stealing money usually was taken out by father's leather belt to once beat on my body by the father of print a vestige, and the meeting kneels till dawn before in the working properly of hall house in front ancestor!Money was very important at that time, I stole a dollar money and felt very precious, didn't dare to put a body up, afraid mother's grandmother did laundry of time, wash lousy, also afraid was walked by the rat Diao or bit open, hence use the chalk wrote on the wall on a certain wall of home'a dollar money, deposited in a wall to sew in'..Result this place have no silver 302, be seen the word on the wall by the father, he sewed from the wall to dig out and then start beating me in money.After grandmother walks, the father still works hard in spite of criticism of teaching and teaching person!The stem that the mother still goes out early and returns till late lives, so then ability various farm goodses sell money loan still, remaining stays at the same time of money will buy cloth for me to sew clothes pants, I wear the remaining younger brother to wear, younger brother the wearing the remainingly wear for younger sister, therefore those year we repair D pants a lot of;And we still go out early and return till late of go to school, often release from school to return to a home, the mother is still in the ground the labor is cold and dreary in cooking stove building, rice also have no, oil also have no, in addition to the broken tile of upstairs tile building last one slice, home almost true have nothing at all.Release from school to come back early, we still have to go to Shan-li Be putting a cow and mowing pig vegetables to feed a pig.Go home early, also help parents to cook a meal, I was worth and proud to is that I was 78 years old and then started cooking a meal, although stand on the cooking stove head, the person wills have sense of achievement to still have no cooking stove set Gao,cook a meal once each time.The pig vegetables climbed mountain to mow back, use the chopper chop down thin cook, because the mountain area didn't give or get an electric shock, usually is that the black light is blind chopping down pig vegetables of fire, the bottom of one knife one knife goes, practice make perfect, one day I as usual by lamplight chop down pig vegetables in the kerosene, carelessly, have no HOLD live, the Mao Ca is one knife, chopped down the left hand thumb a , the nail of thumb covers there and usually comes out new meat up to now, long rose an old cocoon and drop, drop again long is new.Home cooking stove head the top is generally two people's cauldron, the one mouthful cauldron is the food that the person eats, the one mouthful is to do food for beast, the person eats of the pot be tightly eaten by beast of that is black pot of, so the convenience do dishes the waste water like water and without extra trouble use to brush that pot that brushed to throw into beast to eat inside, in order to make the beast able to also taste to order illegitimate profit, also economized water.That is black of the cauldron be like the television in nowadays receive a machine, can pack 45 pig foods, a day, while cooking a pig food to feed a pig, I take a very big wood spade the son is in the pot spade pig food, seethe of pot the inside heavy mist is billowing, I am afraid to cook burnt, then make an effort a spade, the very hot pig eats in the pot to seethe.There is an old cat in our home and grasped a lot of mice for our house, it didn't know that day is which Jin wrong, simply want this pot that ate from the person inside, a Zong step jumped dynasty the pig ate this pot of, this cat had no HOLD to live at that time, 'plop'1, dropped into very hot pot of inside, I hurriedly used spade son to make it quickly getting, the hair was all hot have no, bellowed over there, afterwards I put into it mangosteen Lin Li, it is from the evening call till the second day morning, that miserable voice, the earthquake rang the whole valley, the second day morning just broke and annoyed.This is that I remember still new of once, with as for afterwards, whenever I see cat, all very awe and feel pity on, for example'One cat', for example'sit the cat that the purse one's lips smiles on the moon'.The mother peak season on a farm favour ended, do to live for somebody else, a day ability Zheng is several dollars, is still that the month knot.A weekend, we didn't go to school, mother the favour finished and had the time of lunch in the somebody else's yard, I saw the mother carry a bowl in the somebody else's yard, there is glistening rice in the bowl, the mother sees I come and took a look host with the look in the eyes, and then took a look me and take a grief in look in the eyes, her meaning BE'over there, my son's imprecation you make him come over eat together', that host turn a blind eye, I don't dare and close to again, after all the parents teach us how to want incorrupt, other people not call have a meal, don't gather together in the past, but flowed saliva to have a look is can.I see that day the mother carry that bowl, for a long time didn't take up chopsticks, she twisted overdo, seem to be wiping tears, I like this stay and wait at the doorway of that family and stayed and waited for a long time, younger brother also coming over of the fart Dian fart Dian, he wants to hurtle over to have a meal, is clenched ear by me to drag along to go home.Return to a house, he defies spirit and also picked up my knee of sickle dynasty up chopped down one knife, still have already harmed Ba up to now.Before leaving the yard of that family, I took a look a mother that each grain rice in the bowl, glistening emit hot air, the mother is still useless to take up chopsticks, the look in the eyes of her sadness is in the light shade under a tree and be suffused with a tears flower.While coming back that day, mother cry, she originally wanted do live money to that very day make the host change some rice calculate, the host said to a month just can change.The mother emaciated figure walks toward that wooden pail in our home to, she by hand got the wheat in the wooden pail 1 bowl get up, let I and the younger brother throw into the stone mill grated, we would whet three petal two wheats throw into a pot inside, fill with some water to put some salts, cooked so to eat.I forgot younger brother to chop down my to distress.To know we is hardly eat a noodles food, at we that doesn't eat wheat, the wheat generally grated to feed a pig, and this is different from the temperament of Northerner.(I am to intentionally write wheat not edible of, but we really hardly eat wheat, just rice valley and corn, the sorry eats the Northerner of wheat!)On the second day, the mother carries a bowl to lend a time all neighbors in the village, didn't borrow to a grain of rice, afterwards walk moreover two Zhai sons, just borrow till 1:00, mother swears to wait she to earn money, will buy return of, but the father's wages is only still an every month, all return loan, father after the class, often do agriculture to live for mother, every time round harvest wheat or rice valley, accept the time of corn, we will carry to carry on the back Luo, or pick bamboo Luo and help parents to accept farm goods.Those year, the mother is usually anemic, the arduous labor makes her usually suddenly faint on the ground, and a lot of times faint in the grounds to all almost call to come back not.The father then has been speeding up us to like study.Person be so, the person who have is the genius that naturally likes to study, have plenty of naturally don't like to study of genius, I belong to'genius'the latter of inside.It is a mathematics to turn to particularly dislike, but I like to cheat, this is my strong point, since the childhood, examine each time, I don't cheat, the whole body is suffered, but cheat to attain skilled, appear lost in thought into turned state, perhaps is what ordinary people can not compare.I once wrote answer and wore a long shirt and chased answer book in the sleeves of shirt and took advantage o teacher's inattention and turned over sleeves for a while and quickly took out to copy, the teacher came, my slack suit does very hot appearance, intentionally book book sleeves, very thin settle!So, half near the artistic talent, half near cheat, I walk ascend university, step go into society, in the society, I knew the upper-class person and also knew the mean person,mlb jerseys is been a person, once was absolute being, also drive not appropriate person, but I still the persistence ground is on the hoof, because I am just thinking, my parents of that Shan-li, they give up to Shanghai with me over the mind of nice day and can not get away from that land and still keep cultivating, I with what not and thoroughly is a person?With what not well on the hoof?What difficulty the step canned go before impeding us?People feel strange, my whole familieses are all so thin, but I am so fat, in fact have something to do with my seeing that rice in the crowd to fasten, mother's carrying rice doesn't eat of scene, I can't forget during a lifetime.Ever since that after seeing more rice one eye in the crowd, I start not to like to waste food, in the home, now if a grain of rice drop on the table, I will lick to lick with the tongue and enter its book a mouth inside, a piece of bone drops ground up, I will pick up it, on the trouser-legs wipe for a while, then fill into to continue to chew in mouth, it is in the crowd to isn't that I am poor to fear, because I have tender thoughts of that that bowl of rice that don't eat in the mother's hand.Mix in the society, I half near the real strenght, half depend luck, the firm and unyielding ground is on the hoof.Is only tough and resilient, so as to smile, this is the truth that we are hard a person last person!Return to old house each time afterwards, I see arrive not to make me have the tottering house of that host of rice, more than 20 years, their house what didn't change, but the person's face up, many many vicissitudes of lives, one among the sons see sea get fish for somebody else in Zhejiang, be washed away by the sea water, didn't find out up to now.Every time goes home, I will take some wine or sugar and pass to those two old man's houses, after all, they make me once grow up!But go home each time, I always before paying no attention and walking to grandmother's grave, sometimes silent see, sometimes, will kowtow.The life is in fact such:Don't care other people exactly don't be the person to us, in fact we own of beggarliness, oneself is an invaluable wealth, on this, we are already the persons's last person!The great occasion of nation originally wanted to see father-in-law's mother-in-law with madam's amount of company in Xinjiang last year, but consider that going to expenses in Xinjiang is too high, afterwards the company measures and called to Peking from Urumqi her parents and chased my parents from Guizhou call go to Peking, I chase the wife is from Shanghai call go to Peking, our the armed forces will with, totally visit a capital city.These four old man inside, it is an illiteracy to have 3, but the their development comes out two excellent childrens, can pursue his/her own dream in pool in Shanghai, this is a miracle!Their whole life goes to the Great Wall and visits river mountain in the motherland and believe that this is also a miracle for the first time!We will let more miracles nearby take place at us!I want to take them to ascend the Great Wall and be them to stand the Great Wall up, Mu however look back a to smile of the split second, I really think to say with mother:The Niang, that year, only because saw more rice one eye in the crowd, can not forget your facial appearance any further.